Source of Urge to BEGIN AGAIN

"Begin Again"

This is the reason why “Lost Stars” by Keira Knightley became my soundtrack in my lone time.

4:00 pm could be my favorite time of the day, when the sun shines still but is beginning to sink in the west coast.the color of my hair turns to orange, my skin soaked in the cool strike of sun on my cheeks, it makes my lips more moisturized and I feel alive at this time of the day.

But what makes me more alive is at the time of the night, when it's 11 pm or 12 am, while listening to that cool and melodious voice of Keira. It's like she's bringing me back to the moment where the song plays in my head and the stars sparkling as I see 'em from my room's east part window. I would talk to this single star that seems to be the biggest, the brightest, the one which also talks to me, saying "yes" to everything I ask and listening to everything I say.

"Who are we? Just a speck of dust within the galaxy." The lyrics of the song goes like that, and like me, the star is just like a dust in the galaxy, but it is a part of the whole of it. I'm a part of this world, a part of the whole of something, the whole of my family, my circle of friends. One by one, each night, I think of how could I make every opportunity a ground for me to grow and feel satisfied with anything I have, especially now that I'm still 19, people say there's a lot more to run the long way, and I have to stop on every street down the road. A stop where I could gather something new, learn something different, meet someone new who's gonna have a say on what you can do.

This movie starring Keira Knightley as 'Greta', Adam Levine s 'Dave,' Mark Ruffalo as 'Dan,' Hailee Steinfield as 'Violet,' and Catherine Keener as 'Miriam.' Greta and Dave are songwriting partners and  lovers. Dave signed a record deal from a record label based in New York and he got involved with the anothe rgirl who is also from the studio.

While Dan and Miriam were divorced and is currently sharing the custody for their daughter, Violet. He's a totally wide father who lives his life like an asshole lately because of losing his position as executive producer of a record label.

Dan saw Greta playing in a bar, a song that she composed called 'You Can't Take Back." She's so down after her breakup with Dave. Now, her friend who's living in New York, 'Steve' played by James Corden, helped her out, invited her to his place and they have shared things about music and their life situations.

Dan gave Greta his calling card hat night Steve took her to the bar where he's also playing every night.

Then, for a long convincing time, Greta said yes to Dan about him offering a deal and endorsing her to the company where he worked back then. At first, the endorsement didn't pass so they recorded an album produced by Dan, Greta, and Steve.They recorded under the bridge, streets, in the boats, at the top of a building, int a narrow space between two big apartments.

They innovated a new style of recording songs, they introduced the ideal characteristics of the determined individuals.

Now, back to dreaming, I was wondering when my songs will be played in the stereos and phones of the people, see them sing to my songs, sign albums, (other option is  sign books I've written) LOL. I am very much into literature and music, the sense of art that it transmits is very virtual to me. The feeling of bleeding and writing, the feeling of re-inventing a story, re-telling a story in rhythmic melodies, or these are the two of the world's timeless ideas of humans, timeless form of expression of feelings and questions, about the world and people.

Being one of them is my dream, their stars maybe my stars, their journey might be like mine.

The idea of recording songs everywhere as long as you want to happen what you want to happen was a very fine proposition from the movie.

It is very empowering, to me, I was again motivated in the career I want.

Not forgetting to tell you, I watched this movie last summer, while I was in Baguio for my OJT. I repeat watching them each time I want to remember my source of urge again.

They gave me so much fire for my passion to light again and live on fire. The movie transmitted an energy to my heart, it left me the lesson that there's this great source of power that you can have, right now, it's the emotion that some people cannot or can never feel. I'm even lucky I have that in me and always will be. It's a gift that can take you to the best future you could imagine.

The love of family, friends, partner or lover can never be changed, the opportunities still coming and blessings are just there, ready to be with to us when the time comes.They are reunited with their loved ones, through music and brilliance.

That is the people who support you make your life better, makes you a better human.

There's this content in my heart I cannot sing in this blog post, but watching this, I never regretted.

I am thinking about it again, I want to see Keira was the "Anna Karenina," a classic actress and artist she is.

It takes girls to understand other girls, and men to understand what these girls are not aware of.

You might consider watching this over a coffee, or a musician :)

P.S. Bye for now. Watch out for my "Ride Along" movie. Another motivation source!